Thursday, August 14, 2008

Expectations



There are so many things that i've always felt to be really important in my life , but as i lay gazing at my window , the sun shone in my eyes and took me into this trance ... initially i didn't know what i was thinking , slowly i started seeing myself few years ago ... i remembered how happy i used to be .. i remembered that i never took unnecessary worries about my future , my career , my life ... i used to live life the way it came ... i had very few expectations in life ...be it from friends , family , relationships and even life for that matter . but slowly as life moved on ... things or i might say reality dawned on me .... expectations from me got higher n higher .... family members started having too many expectations all of a sudden .... responsibilities got bigger , relationships got colder due to expectation again , pressure at work , things just changed all too soon .

i thought something was wrong with me and started expecting lesser n lesser ,
i even told everyone around me that i don't expect anything in return from them , for quite sometime i was okay with it .... just giving in 100% of myself and expecting nothing in return until i slowly started to slack , started to feel lonely and left out , i felt i wasn't myself anymore ...
i felt like life s missing out lot of things or rather i was missing lot of important things in life , i started staying away from friends n family ...

i read this blog today which is instigating me to change back to the person what i was .... i feel much better already ...
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