Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Memories

Memories .......Everybody has something to remember ,good ones , bad ones .... even unforgettable ones ...... not that i m gonna write about them now ....

Talking about memories , the first thing that comes to my mind are the days of my school ...Those were really the best days of my life that i can remember or actually never forget.

Life used to be so different ,little things used to make a huge difference ,everything seemed so big , class test used to be such a big deal to prod over ....getting the attention of your favorite teacher was like an achievement , being known in your friend circles was such a big thing ....
There were days you really dreaded waking up in the early hours to get ready and go to school ... kept cribbing to myself till i reached and the moment i was with my buddies , everything used to change ...
Everybody had different dreams , goals ,aspirations in life ... and there was our gang of friends , we never bothered much about the future ... still remember the time we used to hang out in the cafeteria and chatting about this and that ...nothing important though mostly girls or cars or gadgets ...guy's stuff ... or sometimes rarely though about dreams and aims of life ....
anyways it didn't really matter what you spoke about ...the only thing that mattered to us was that we were around people we wanted to be with -Friends .

Sitting in the classroom , waiting for that boring hour to get over with or may be waiting for the computer practicals to begin or waiting for the P.T class to start .... all this while just gazing through the window at the playground watching others playing basket ball or just running around ...somethings are there in our minds forever ....

Sometimes when you meet your old buddies from school and end up talking about school , those good old days back in school which is the only thing that we end up talking about , you just so badly wish you were back in those times , away from all these tensions and worries of the present life , you end up laughing or smiling just remembering those moments ...
There's always something that each one of us wants to add up to those conversation about the school days , there's always been a teacher's pet , sport star of the school , the prankster in the class , the talkative guy/girl, the quiet person ... somebody some where to talk about ....

it just doesn't leave your mind at all ....that's what they are Memories ...Sweet memories .

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Expectations



There are so many things that i've always felt to be really important in my life , but as i lay gazing at my window , the sun shone in my eyes and took me into this trance ... initially i didn't know what i was thinking , slowly i started seeing myself few years ago ... i remembered how happy i used to be .. i remembered that i never took unnecessary worries about my future , my career , my life ... i used to live life the way it came ... i had very few expectations in life ...be it from friends , family , relationships and even life for that matter . but slowly as life moved on ... things or i might say reality dawned on me .... expectations from me got higher n higher .... family members started having too many expectations all of a sudden .... responsibilities got bigger , relationships got colder due to expectation again , pressure at work , things just changed all too soon .

i thought something was wrong with me and started expecting lesser n lesser ,
i even told everyone around me that i don't expect anything in return from them , for quite sometime i was okay with it .... just giving in 100% of myself and expecting nothing in return until i slowly started to slack , started to feel lonely and left out , i felt i wasn't myself anymore ...
i felt like life s missing out lot of things or rather i was missing lot of important things in life , i started staying away from friends n family ...

i read this blog today which is instigating me to change back to the person what i was .... i feel much better already ...